It Isn’t Just About STUDYING.. It’s Also About APPLYING

One of the many things that appealed to me about Satanism is the concept of study (not worship).  Many of us who were drawn to it discovered we’d already been employing many of the concepts, already, but did not have a focal point to guide them.

I find universal truth is often replicated elsewhere.  Using The Scientific Method, one can easily prove the positive correlation of a thing by having others test on their end and come to the common same result.  Having typed all of that, I find the principles of Satanism are universally true and can be applied to anything.  Here is my proof.


This is where it begins and ends—an endless loop.  Below, is a snapshot of my physical print collection:


I also find it’s equally important to look at similar viewpoints—and even opposite viewpoints—for comparative analysis’ sake.  Also included in my collection (particularly, in e-book format) are various occult-themed non-fiction titles:


It doesn’t END here, however.  This is an important item (at least, for me).


After graduating high school, I skipped a few years but dove back into college and never seemed to stop.  In fact, I don’t plan to stop until I graduate with a PhD in Information Technology (Security/Data Analytics) in 2021.  In my profession, certification is an important and constant gauge for continuous improvement/self-development, as well.



In the technical field, there is a need  for constant learning, so I’ve learned/applied quite a few disciplines like web design/development, ethical hacking, auditing, compliance, security, data analytics, SQL, servers, etc..



Below, is a road map from entry level occupation to the point where I’m at, now.  It didn’t involve competing with others but was rooted solely in self-competition and an insatiable drive to move ever forward and upward.  When I hear things like “we’ve never seen documentation like that before” or “how did you get metrics for your team?” or “I’d like your help in organizing this group” or “that’s a great idea!” I know I’m on a growth-path that’s taking things to another level wherever I go:




There is little need in keeping things contained or marginalized.  The concept of continuous imitation, innovation, and improvement can extend to hobbies and side-projects as well.  Illustration is something I do on-the-side and have published work at conventions and online (Amazon).  The application of aesthetics doesn’t just have to extend to the body but in what can be produced, as well:


I learned by imitating specific artists I greatly admired like Boris Vallejo, Alex Ross, and Michael Turner (especially, lately).  I’ve been illustrating since age three and never stopped.  Below, are snapshots of typical drawings I do while traveling (plane or boat).


Writing Publications

Below, is a snapshot of work I’m immensely proud of.  I’ve published 3 of 4 e-books (on Amazon) and maintain a blog about Autism Spectrum Disorder (I’m diagnosed) and having studied everything I possibly could about it.  When I have other people who either have someone who is—or they, themselves—are on The Spectrum—tell me that it’s helped them cope and learn more about this thing, that is payment in many ways all on its own.


Martial Arts

I started training in 1988 as a kid and never stopped, since.  I’ve had the honour of training with a few well-established coaches/instructors in their fields.  My father and I opened our own school in Albuquerque, NM, and I still teach on-the-side and maintain a fairly popular YouTube channel.  I find that maintaining mind-and-body (balance) keeps confidence and empowers the desire to do more in all other aspects of my life.


Extended Learning

Singing courses (Ken Tamplin Vocal Academy) – I have no interest in singing for anyone else but myself.  I just wanted to better understand concepts like “octave” and “vibrato” and “range” and “projection” and “head voice” or “mixed voice.”  I wanted to better understand how some of my favourite vocalists did what they do.


Piano (self-taught) – I didn’t really care about playing for anyone else, but I wanted to better understand the concepts of “keys” and “half notes” and “flat” and “sharp” and “octave.”

Klingon (self-taught) – I love Star Trek, and the Klingon language appealed to me, so I had to buy the dictionary and the DVD tutorials.


Willpower and Survival

I was born with numerous health challenges (extreme anemia, underweight, ASD, significant muscle weakness) and contended with challenges later as an adult (survived a heart attack in 2003 while driving on a freeway).. only to force myself to come out much, much stronger (even physically).

Love for Life and Its Pleasures (Carnal)

Why bother doing these things if not for the JOY of doing them? I enjoy movies and music and toys and comic books—a good tequila, pizza, and hotdogs—the company of small-circle friends.  I could care less what others think about that.  This, in itself, is an important lesson.


An ironic challenge in all of this is in not being an arrogant prick about any of it.  Hence the need for self-challenge, self-growth, and self-appeasement.  Others may follow along the same path, they may have compliment or be influenced by this, as a result.

Continuous learning and constant study need not be limited to just ONE thing or ONE source but can be extended to MANY subjects and aspects of life.  Take Satanic concepts and apply them everywhere, and you may very well find that they’ve been a part of your life, all along.

Satanism: The Religion for Those on The Autism Spectrum?

The question may seem a bit silly to ask, of course.  Why should ONE particular religion stand-out among all others for people who have been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder? Why should it stand-out for those who are NOT on The Spectrum, for that matter? DOES it matter?

Two things to get out of-the-way prior to continuing: 1) what is Autism Spectrum Disorder and 2) What is Satanism?

I was formally diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder in 2016.  You can read more about my journey here if so inclined.

There are very interesting parallels I have discovered between the two entities, as I continue a lifelong study of both.  Below, is a side-by-side comparison that supports my hypothesis:

  • Do not give opinions or advice unless you are asked.
  • Do not tell your troubles to others unless you are sure they want to hear them.
  • When in another’s lair, show him respect or else do not go there.
  • If a guest in your lair annoys you, treat him cruelly and without mercy.
  • Do not make sexual advances unless you are given the mating signal.
  • Do not take that which does not belong to you unless it is a burden to the other person and he cries out to be relieved.
  • Acknowledge the power of magic if you have employed it successfully to obtain your desires. If you deny the power of magic after having called upon it with success, you will lose all you have obtained.
  • Do not complain about anything to which you need not subject yourself.
  • Do not harm little children.
  • Do not kill non-human animals unless you are attacked or for your food.
  • When walking in open territory, bother no one. If someone bothers you, ask him to stop. If he does not stop, destroy him.


source: Church of Satan

 Socially, we are typically unlikely to approach others unless when asked to do so.

We tend to internalize our thoughts and emotions.

We tend to follow rules quite literally.

Because we are socially awkward,





Spectrum Photographs – How I View The World Around Me

I recently came back from a short trip that passed through Los Angeles, CA to Sequoia National Park and King’s Canyon.  I’ve never experienced nature such as this.  I’ve never seen anything as overwhelming (in a GOOD way for a change) as these two parks.  I was SAD to leave.  Below, are my favourite photos I took during the trip.  How does someone On The Spectrum view natural (and a few human-made) surroundings? Like this:

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Never Ever EVER Give Up… It IS Possible

When you talk to some researchers.. some diagnosticians.. some doctors.. and, especially, some who are On The Spectrum.. they think they can’t progress much further beyond High School, education-wise.

They think they can’t progress much further beyond entry level employment.

They think they can’t achieve happiness in relationships—of any kind.

Well, this is all a LIE.

I’m living proof, and I’m here to tell you that you CAN succeed in a relationship.  You CAN succeed with employment—and even climb the Corporate “ladder.”  You CAN achieve advanced degrees in school.

I’ve been in a stable relationship for 17 years.

I’ve attained management-level positions in large and small corporations.

I’m pursuing a PhD—which means I already attained a Master’s Degree.. and a Bachelor’s Degree.. and an Associates.  It took a LONG time, but I did it—I’m still doing it.

I’m NOT bragging.  I’m simply telling you that it IS possible.  You have to try hard.. REAL HARD.  You can’t give up.

If you are going through hell, keep going” ~ unknown

The Tao – Science – And Spirituality

Most symbols—particularly of religious context—don’t do much for me.

I wear an Ankh necklace, but I don’t care that the Ankh represents life and fertility.  I wear it because it’s a sentimentality—something I’ve had since 1989.  Most symbols are typically straightforward with their implied meaning but can drive violence in others toward others—simply because of their perceived meaning.  I find that behaviour quite silly.

I’m far more intrigued by a symbol I can stare at and contemplate for years. This is why I’m particularly intrigued by the YIN-YANG symbol of Taoism. yinyangThe scientist in me doesn’t subscribe to religious dogma or most (not all) mystical inferences of any belief system. I am intrigued by the philosophical nature of any belief system—particularly, one that can be matched with the scientific method and come out with facts versus superstition and inaccuracy.

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Illustrating.. My First Special Interest

It’s a very exciting thing for me to share my illustrations with anyone.  While growing up, I gave probably hundreds of drawings to fellow classmates, random mall walkers, folks at coffee shops, etc.

I felt satisfaction knowing I was bringing some joy to others as a result.

It’s still a difficult decision for me to actually monetize it all by selling them online.  It’s funny (and, yes, I DO see the irony in this as well) that I’m publishing coloring books—see, I have NO appreciation for color apart from black, white, and grey (toss in chrome maybe).  It occurred to me, however, that if I despise color maybe others can do the coloring FOR me—hence coloring books.

Yesterday, I published the latest creation just in time for Halloween.  I do my most sales during this time of year because most of my work is a bit goth and macabre, anyway.



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Martial Arts Versus Autism Spectrum Disorder

Being involved in any kind of physical activity can be challenging in itself. A common symptom of ASD is a difficulty with coordination. Social interaction is another. Combine the two, and you have a hella’ time trying to engage in a physical activity such as a sport.

I took special interest in Martial Arts at a young age. What was a fascination for me also resulted in a “cure” for coordination issues. I learned balance, simultaneity, dexterity, control, speed, fluidity, technique, concept—all of these things are what helped me.

Having typed all of that, there are still numerous challenges for someone On The Spectrum who wants to pursue Martial Arts training.  It particularly revolves around instructor/coach-student communication. Someone like me has a noticeable processing delay when dealing with VERBAL instruction (or general spoken communication, period). I have to SEE something in order to understand it. Someone like me takes things literally—especially verbal instruction.

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My Special Interest With Patterns, Data, and Analytics..

I’ve mentioned in my primary site that one of my strengths is being highly VISUAL.  I can see complex patterns in many things, break them down into categories/sub-categories, and analyze common traits, dissimilar traits, and conduct comparative analysis, root-cause analysis, historical analysis, and even forecasting (to an available extent).

Here are some of the things I’ve taken an analytical fascination with:work_projects work_projects_1graph_ex
These examples are how my analytical-visual strengths serve me well in the workplace, especially in regards to Project Management and Productivity tracking.

I manage my requests and projects—tracking ETA, budget, demand source, duration, scope creep, resources, etc.  This is how I am able to manage my demand time, incidentally.  If I treat my workload like a project, I can see it through without unnecessary delay.

In previous jobs, I managed data analytic and reporting teams, and analytics helped drive the business toward success as we were able to provide the businesses with an actual VISUAL representation of how they were doing, where they’ve been, and where they were going.  We made use of incredibly fun tools such as Business Objects, Crystal Reports, Xcelsius, etc. Continue reading “My Special Interest With Patterns, Data, and Analytics..”