Yes, socializing is damned difficult for someone like me. Most folks don’t realize how much effort is required just to engage in simple small talk much less carry-on a lengthy conversation. Every single word and phrase is 1) detected, 2) analyzed, and 3) interpreted in my brain. If it’s straight-forward information exchange, I can reciprocate (unless it’s something I have no experience/knowledge of). If it engages my special interests (e.g. movies, music, science fiction, illustrating, martial arts, technology), then I can talk the other person(s) into sheer boredom and will RARELY be aware they’re done with the topic.. I can talk about my special interests for HOURS and RARELY interpret the other person’s facial expressions or body language. Contrary to popular misunderstanding, most of us on the spectrum DO want to socialize, but because of the above-mentioned challenges, we tend to avoid social interactions. Having typed all of that, I deeply care for my friends and family—in many ways, they’re both one in-the-same. I just can’t show it or express it worth a damn most of the time.